Image by Erik Karits from Pixabay Just before the holidays I found out that I’m harboring some chronic infections related to Lyme disease. While Lyme proper is caused by the bacteria Borrelia burgdorferi, there are plenty of other insect-borne infections that fall under the Lyme umbrella. These “co-infections” are notoriously hard to diagnose and a challenge to treat. … Continue reading Blimey, I’m Lyme-y!

We tell ourselves stories in order to live. -Joan Didion Earlier this month I attended my very first writing retreat. I am fairly certain I would never have started writing had I not become sick. Though I’ve been an avid reader since I was a young child (you couldn’t tear me away from my books … Continue reading Accidental Writer

Photo by Katya Austin on Unsplash One day last week, upon leaving my therapist’s office, I shared the elevator with a man who looked to be a decade or so older than me. He wore orthopedic braces on both legs and walked haltingly with a cane. As he got in the elevator we smiled at one another and … Continue reading Mostly Good

Image by ArtCoreStudios from Pixabay Lately I seem to be in another delicate state of health. When I left my job I was hopeful that increased time to take care of myself would result in improved health (physical at least, if not emotional), but so far my body does not seem to want to cooperate. I find myself … Continue reading Delicate

Image by PDPics from Pixabay In an ideal world all the work that I’ve done on myself over the past 21 months would have left me feeling fairly relaxed and content right about now. The meditation classes and retreats, the months and months of therapy, the bathroom floor moments, the intense releasing of emotions, the soul work and … Continue reading Real

Photo by Luca Upper on Unsplash My entire life for the past several years has been an exercise in letting go. Letting go of my need for physical health, letting go of certain dreams, goals and attachments, letting go of the way I saw myself, letting go of ego. A few weeks ago I made the tough decision … Continue reading Letting Go (Again)

Photo by Greg Rakozy on Unsplash If you have read any of my earlier blog posts you will know that I struggled for years with the idea that my life lacked purpose beyond my role as a mother and a wife. I have, perhaps somewhat naively, felt that I was meant to discover a purpose (with a capital … Continue reading Purposeful

Image by Public Co from Pixabay Over the summer I had an experience that allowed me to start releasing patterns of guilt and shame as well as some of the angst, aimlessness and dissatisfaction I had been feeling. I went to see a transformational bodyworker, Mark Haviland (beyondbodywork.com), on the recommendation of a dear friend. I am always … Continue reading Reclamation

Photo by Lucie Hošová on Unsplash "The meaning of forgiveness is . . . accepting that you’re not going to go back and change the past."   --Cheryl Strayed I thought I would feel whole when I became healthier, but what I really wanted was never to have been sick in the first place. I wanted to go back … Continue reading Forward

Photo by Felicia Buitenwerf on Unsplash “They (the ill) may gain insights they may never had had in their normal life. They may access their inner knowing and contentment and speak words of wisdom. Then, when they get better, energy returns and so does the ego.”-Eckhart Tolle, A New Earth So why did my health take a downturn? … Continue reading Less Than